You get what you see

the funny thing is i dont miss him„ well not as much as i expected myself to, he doesnt deserve me too anyways, only a little bit i guess.. but its not him i miss its IT i miss„

IT;

the cuggles in bed, the late night phone calls, the random kisses on the forehead, the movie nights when your poorly, kisses in the rain, kisses anytime, the butterflies when you look at each other, the i love you’s, the cheesy oneliners, the random walks at any time of the day, the drives to beacon fell, the kids we acted like, the stupid things we did, the support you gave, the happiness i felt, the glow in me which was caused by you.

Thats what i miss … im not saying it was all good but there the good things i would love to keep forever… Single isnt all bad ive got THAT now ;)

THAT;

no accusations, my friends back, my boys back <3, do what you like, do it when you like, and do it with who you like.

Im not saying i want to settle down „ im young and have a whole lot of life to live yet ;) im just saying sometimes there are times when i need that support i had and that comfort of knowing i always have someone there no matter what „ but i guess that no matter what just happened because look now„ your nowhere to be seen …. to busy having IT with your new Mrs… well i dont want to be bitter or twisted about it because honestly i dont care enough to be„

My last words to you are ;;

Good luck, be careful &+ whatever you do make sure your happy… you never know give it another 8 years and all those plans we have always had may be put back in to motion..  but for now you go your way, ill go mine and we will see where they take us <3

i love you but i dont miss you„ i miss IT

Appearance

• I have/had piercings besides the ears.
• I want piercings besides the ears.
• I tan easily.
• I wish my hair was a different color.
• I have/want a tattoo.
• I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
• I have/had braces
• I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment

• Disney movies still make me cry sometimes.
• I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
• I’ve glued my hand to something.
• I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
• I’ve had my pants rip in public.
• I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.

Health

• I’ve gotten stitches.
• I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
• I’ve had my tonsils removed.
• I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
• I’ve had chickenpox

Travel

• I’ve been to Florida.
• I’ve been on a plane.
• I’ve been to California.
• I’ve been to Asia.
• I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
• I’ve been to Vanuatu or the Mystery Islands.
• I’ve been to the Caribbean.
• I’ve been to Europe.

Experiences

• I’ve gotten lost in a city.
• I’ve seen a shooting star.
• I’ve wished on a shooting star.
• I’ve seen a meteor shower.
• I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
• I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
• I’ve slapped someone.
• I’ve kissed someone underwater.
• I’ve crashed a car .
• I’ve been skiing.
• I’ve been in a musical.
• I’ve auditioned for something.
• I’ve been on stage.
• I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
• I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
• I’ve pranked someone.
• I’ve ridden in a taxi.

Honesty / Crime

• I’ve been threatened to be arrested
• I’ve broken a law
• I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
• I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
• I’ve snuck out.
• I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
• I’ve cheated while playing a game.
• I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death

• I’m afraid of dying.
• I hate funerals.
• I’ve seen someone/something die.
• Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.

Materialism

• I own over 5 rap CD’s.
• I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
• I collected comic books.
• I own a lot of makeup.
• I own something from Pac Sun.
• I own something from The Gap.
• I own something I got on E-Bay.
• I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

• I can sing low key
• I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
• I open up to others easily.
• I watch the news occasionally or always.
• I don’t like to kill bugs.
• I sing in the shower.
• I’m a morning person.
• I twirl my hair.
• I’m a sports fan
• I care about grammar.
• I love to spam friends.
• I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
• I can bake
• My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
• I would wear pajamas to school.
• I like Martha Stewart.
• I laugh at my own jokes.
• I eat fast food weekly.
• I’ve not turned something in and still got an A in a certain class.
• I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
• I’m really ticklish
• I like white chocolate.
• I bite/used to bite my nails.
• I’m good at remembering names.
• I’m good at remembering dates.
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

People

• ..used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
• ..called me fat.
• ..have said I’m skinny.
• ..have said I’m pretty.
• ..have spread rumors about me.
• ..have said I’m ugly.
• ..force me to eat.
• ..say I eat too much.
• ..say I eat too little.

Eating

• I’ve lost weight.
• I’ve gained weight.
• I’m at my thinnest.
• I’m at my biggest.
• I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
• I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
• My weight affects my mood.
• I’m vegan/vegetarian.
• I exercise.

Family

• I’ve sworn at my parents.
• I’ve run away from home.
• I have a sibling less than one year old.
• I want kids in the future.
• I’ve had kids.
• I’ve lost a child.

Relationships

• I’m engaged.
• I’m married.
• I’m single.
• I’ve gone on a blind date.
• I miss someone right now.
• I have a fear of abandonment
• I’ve gotten divorced.
• Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
• I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
• I’ve told someone/myself I didn’t love someone when I did.
• I’ve been kissed in the rain.
• I’ve hugged a stranger.
• I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times

• I regularly drink
• I shut others out when I’m upset.
• I don’t talk to anyone when I’m upset about something personal.
• I’ve slept an entire day before.

i love my boysss <3 they mean the world to me there not only my best friends but there also like the brothers i never had„ i would seriously be lost with out you all „ and no matter how much i bully use i know you all love me tooo ;) and as the majority of you have asked i am going to TRY MY BEST to stop over thinking things xD … you make my world happpyyy :) <3